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A part of Matt, because he wasn't perfect, was feeling resentful and frustrated with Heather and Kirsten. While he knew that his claims might sound outlandish to strangers, he'd hoped that those closer to him would trust him. He's frustrated that his relationships with the two women have become so strained that they can't take that leap of faith with him. He's upset that he knows he was partly to cause for that dynamic to decay. He's bothered that even despite his faults and what he's done, they won't listen. There were a lot of conflicting feelings and emotions right now inside of him that combined with the drugs and pain made rational thinking even harder. He wasn't about to condemn Heather and Kirsten, but he's absolutely a little mad at them along with himself.

At least they're alive right now for him to be mad at. They won't be for long if Fisk keeps getting ahead.

He let out a frustrated grunt but he didn't try to move again, at least not yet, from the pillows as Kate pressed him back down onto them. "We don't have a minute." Even he could tell how dramatic he sounded, and his defiant expression faded to one of tired yet grudging acknowledgement. He needed a few more minutes before he could get up. Just a few. "Yeah. Maybe call Cherry. Tell him to be careful, though. ... I wonder what the news is saying. I can't hear it from the other rooms yet." Surely televisions were on elsewhere, but Matt was too groggy still to pick things out just yet. "I need to tell the nurse to cut my painkillers." He'd rather have a clearer head and be in pain than having his senses scrambled.